~Spero ergo sum~™

March 26, 2007


Filed under: Misc — Teal @ 7:19 am

CAN someone please let know how to shift to the new blogger from the old blogger?
During my sporadic posting days, the option came and went, and now i am not able to move to the new blogger. Both this blog and my other blog are stuck in the old blogger.
Any help will be duly appreciated!


March 22, 2007

J’s Galore!

Filed under: Music — Teal @ 8:11 pm

So finally decided to put a post on two of my favorite artistes of all time. My playlist almost includes either all of their songs or a handful of theirs , repeated beyond count :-P]
I have always had a love for the guitar and somehow never got to lay my hands on one, until now. Not that my guitar is a custom made stratocaster, but i am make doing with a simple Givson Crown, which is a rocking choice for beginners. Someday will get me one of ’em Les Pauls [and no, I aint kidding!!!!]
The reason why I am mentioning him first is because of all the artistes listed in this post, I heard him the first. Long long ago, back in the days of Times FM on 107.1, when Nikhil Chinnappa was an RJ here in Chennaipattinam – when chennai or rather india in itself was new to cable television, I used to fervently listen to this particular station between 7-9pm.
7-8 was a call in session, where in we could request for songs, and make dedications. IT was sometime between 5th and 6th standard, which was quite a long time ago!
[Considering that I am working now.] Heard a composition of his called “Love Thing” for the first time that summer, and fell madly in love with his sound, not to mention the track.
Some of my other favourites of his include – “Rubina’s blue sky happiness”, “Crystal Planet”, “Flying in a blue dream”, and “The Extremist”.
Thala pola varuma?

Not only is this guy blessed with talent, he is also pretty good looking. [yeah yeah many may beg to differ, but this is my blog not urs 😛 ] . Heard him first crooning “Your body is wonderland” a couple of years back. Wasnt that impressed. Thought to myself, this kid wont last, he is one of ’em one hit wonders. But boy , did he prove me wrong or what?
He might not be a commercial success, but he has gained quite a fan following across the globe.
His latest album titled “Continuum” has recieved rave reviews, and has shown how much maturity he has acquired as a musician.
Some of my favourites of his include – “Bigger than my body”, “No Such Thing”, “Clarity”,”Only Heart”, “Neon” , “Home Life”,”Belief”,”Stop this train”,”Waiting on the world to change”.
[I know I might have as well put “The complete works of John Mayer” , but he aint done yet]
Hopin to hear more gr8 music from these two favourites of mine in the years to come!

March 20, 2007

Life aint no sitcom, folks

Filed under: Sobriety — Teal @ 8:53 pm


Judging by the topic of this particular post, one might think that the content of the same would be something so weepy-willowish that Ekta Kapoor would come running to my doors asking to buy it for her future mega-serials. But no, this aint none of that shit.

I have officially spent 6 months in the real world and well … like a certain character plagued by OCD in a popular sitcom says “Welcome to the real world. IT SUCKZ!” But opinions do differ, I was neither a rich spoilt brat nor a poor kid. I have been blessed so far with all the things that a typical girl of my strata could ask for, or should I say, a whole lot more than that? Okie so you guys must be thinking my tryst with the real world has been rather off color, not up to the mark, right.


Maybe it’s just me. Or maybe it’s the way every 20-something feels when we are out there, facing it all for the first time. Within these 6 months [which seemed to inch by in those few days, but now so seemingly passed me by like a gunshot], I have met many kinds of specimens that would put Freuds analysis to shame !

Yup. Some type of people who are so high up in stature and positions, yet so down low in thought and openness, so narrow minded that one would wonder who stole the blinkers and the carrot from the horses! Not that I wasnt prepared for meeting these kind of specimens. This is just the tip of the iceberg, or so I have been told.

Just realised a few more things. There are hella lot of sick sycophants, lackeys , toadies sleathily slithering arnd me at all times. I gotta be on alert 24×7, lest someone raise their hood and lash! Which made me realise cpla other things~

  • I have decided to celebrate my uniqueness.
  • I have never been a stereotype all my life, nor do I intend to become one.
  • I have never been a soap/butter spreading slime bugger, and can never see myself morphing into one.
  • I loathe it when ppl use work lingo outside work.

Normalcy is boring. Lunacy rocks. If everyone was the same, acted the same, thought the same, where is the need for a society, where is the need for thought itself? No art can spring out of such a herd of people. [makkal = maakal] I am not the kind of a reptile who changes colours or hides under a shroud of boredom. I celebrate the way I am and the person that I am.

“But this morning, there’s a calm I can’t explain
The rock candy’s melted, only diamonds now remain
And I will wait to find
If this will last forever
And I will wait to find
If this will last forever
And I will pay no mind
Well it won’t, and it won’t, cause it can’t
It just can’t
It’s not supposed to .”

March 18, 2007

Heights of Irrelevance!

Filed under: Misc — Teal @ 8:58 am

Eloo Blogjunta!

I know it has been eons since any kind of enthusiasm or humor poured in within the realm of T.E.A.L.S.P.A.C.E. I wouldn’t say that my primary occupation of writing [yes, writing in programming languages 😛 if not the universal tongue] is hectic, but it does tax on my enthusiasm and energy, and am inevitably unable to pen down stuff during the weekdays, lest of course I get reallll worked up and take a casual down to my kiosk 😀

“People are crazy, and times have changed

I am locked in tight, I am out of range

I used to care, but things have changed . . .”

Over this gap of a few weeks I had bumped into two or may be even more of my cell inmates from my first school. And came to realize one universal truth~ I haven’t changed since 10th grade. :-O

The younger sibling of a friend of mine, who took valiant efforts to get us both back in touch again, retorted over much surprise [or was it shock] “Akka, you talk the same since you were in 10th standard! I am astounded!!!”

Hmmmm. …….

Quite a bunch of my school buds who are damn close to me also accept this , but not with as much shock. Which kind of brings me to this topic.

What is exactly known as “growing up?”

How do you define a “grown up” person?

Many have said over these few years that I have spent in this world that a grown up person is someone who is mature, or rather “acts” mature.

“Look at how mature she is.”

Maturity is associated with being calm, composed and quiet. And of course having a firm hand in decision making, and being possessed with the ability to take total control of your life.

So a person who you’ve just met or those distant relatives or those useless ppl you meet at functions or you are acquainted with [gok why, you might never end up meeting them again, or end up meeting them and to much embarrassment, not being able to recall them.] cant judge you about being mature, right?

But on the surface~

  1. Won’t introverts be misjudged as “mature” people?
  2. Does that mean talkative people are not mature?
  3. Question 2 repeated w.r.t extroverts?

So people, an extrovert with a rocking sense of humor could easily be misjudged as a puerile person , right? Falsify all my above statements with a relevant argument, if you feel otherwise.

And on a totally irrelevant note, saw three great movies ~

  • Kill Bill Vol 1 & 2 [Tarantino rocks!!!!]
  • The Departed [Matt Damon and Leonardo Di Caprio shine like beacons through superb performances, well done Scorcese (well deserved Oscars too)]
  • Batman Begins

After seeing Lawrence Fishburne and Uma Thurman wield the Samurai Sword, me got a keen interest to learn that art, wat say folks? 😀

Saw Batman begins. [all you ardent movie goers may poo-poo at my lack of movie watchin pace , but whatever] Christian Bale is amazing. The second best actor to play Batman. The first being Val Kilmer. Batman Forever!!! Need I say more?

Just started reading “The google story” by David .A Vise. Finished “Eragon” by Christopher Paolini. Fell in love with it. Planning to buy Eldest and Alagesia soon.

Dragon Eggs, anyone? 😦

India loses to Bangladesh. Maybe they should spend less time whitening their teeth or straightening their hair at beauty salons to endorse stuff and more time practicing on the field.

And nowadays I am hooked to John Mayer and Joe Satriani. Guitar classes going at snail pace, since my carnatic roots take a while to get used to western notations, but on a brighter note, I can play 2 varnams in my guitar 😀

Someday, I will play “Crystal Planet” and “The Extremist”.

Thala pola varuma?

March 10, 2007

The lone wolf

Filed under: Sobriety — Teal @ 7:16 pm

The lone wolf is the greatest survivor of the day. The lone ranger , the solitary reaper and the like. Who all and who not.
U may have many friends in quality and quantity, but some day and i am sure one day you would feel saturated by the world around you and just run away to one happy place where u can breathe. Where you feel like you have your own space. Where you dont have to explain yourself or your actions to anyone whosoever.
That state is a state of solitude.
A state that most go into , or mostly are in.
While googling for quotes on loneliness/ solitude, I came across a very interesting quote~

Our language has widely sensed the two sides of being alone.
It has created the word “loneliness” to express the pain of being alone.
And it has created the word “solitude” to express the glory of being alone.”

– Paul Tillich

Never knew that the sound of silence or solitude could speak volumes to me.
As a human being, it is justified when one seeks comfort in the arms of solitude then be surrounded by hypocrites, shams or pretenders. Sometimes, the malice i see in most people , the deceit, the absolute lack of any sense of feeling for any other , save themselves.

If only people could get some sense of feeling or humaneness into their lives .. this world would definitely be a better place to live in and people will be better too. But no, we always put down other people and their abilities.

Is it because we look at improving the other person , or is it because those pricks want to prove to their own insecure self that they are the better of the lot?

For people who care about me , however few exist in this cruel world, fear not.
I am not a misanthrope.

For the rest. Watever.

In solitude, where we are least alone.

– Lord Byron

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