~Spero ergo sum~™

November 12, 2006

Que sera sera

Filed under: Sobriety — Teal @ 2:18 am

“The heart is deceitful above all things,
And desperately wicked:
Who can know it?”

No matter what we want, or what we actually get, we are never really happy. The grass is always greener on the other side. No matter what evil deeds we have done in the past, we cant go back and undo them, no matter how hard we try. No matter how much we hit ourselves in the head for oppurtunities long lost, words not said, parties not thrown, gifts not given, we cannot and will not be able to go back in time to do all of those.

Life is a very fleeting thing. One day you are here. Next day, you are gone.
No matter what all we achieve, and what all we strive to do, that small tinge and pangs of regret resurface. Emotions flow like an ocean and erupt in lava-like fashion. Some unpredictable day when you are just sitting in front of your computer, checking your mails, offliners and scraps. People keep in touch except for all of those that matter.

Time keeps changing, so do people. I wished the latter didnt.
Only memories stay true.
Memories of long lost days of innocence, genuine fun and cluelessness.
As I recently got appended to the rat race of the world, I realised how much it sucks.
Why doesnt the heart refuse to let go?
Why do we remember and yearn for things long lost?
For apologies not conveyed?
For phone calls not made? for not meeting people?

And why is everything about friendship and love so horribly overrated? If it wasnot for the crap flicks on the big screen and archies at their captitalist worst, we would’ve been much better off.
And why do we always place some people above all the rest, and yet they donot even acknowledge our existence ? Atleast the fact that we walk, talk , breathe and exist in this crappy world.

And why do poets and writers always use bloody metaphors and similies and beat around the bush?
We need not turn to works of litreature to get gyaan.
We need not use expressions n idioms to say idiotic things.
Speak your mind. Be frank.

Life is short. You could be gone in the blink of an eye,
It is the truth , that you cant deny
And yet you hold back, as time passes by
And yearn for it all when you say goodbye.


Let Go.

“Should’ve smiled in that picture
if it’s the last that i’ll see of you
it’s the least that you could not do”

PS: I seriously dont know what had gotten over me when I typed the above post!
I blame the rains outside that had gotten me soul searching, not to mention my ever faithful cuppa and John Mayer’s vocals 😛



  1. chillax teal!! the world aint a gud plact to live anymore 🙂

    Comment by kuttichuvaru — November 12, 2006 @ 2:57 am | Reply

  2. hey.. its a more substance oriented world out there.. not many caring and loving soul left in there.. n if u try to be one will end up very much disappointed.. sincerely share ur feelings.. as ive been thro this before…
    n i love these lines…

    And why do we always place some people above all the rest, and yet they donot even acknowledge our existence ?

    Comment by senthil kumar dhanasekaran — November 12, 2006 @ 11:52 am | Reply

  3. Thinking of taking print out and sticking it at my desk :). If we could answer all these questions u asked then life would be too easy which would make it uninteresting!

    Comment by Vinod R Iyer — November 13, 2006 @ 8:30 am | Reply

  4. Hmmm… So everyone feels the same way is it?!! I thought I am the only one brooding in life thinking of the days gone by!! Nice post.

    And belated b’day wishes to TEALSPACE… mine too is celebrating 1st bday this month! (But no posts on that yet)

    Comment by Hari — November 15, 2006 @ 9:28 am | Reply

  5. all cos of “Back to you” ‘s efects i believe… well one thing we’ll have to realise.. we always wish to get “there” but when v really get there therez no “there”

    Comment by Hell's Angel — November 25, 2006 @ 3:42 pm | Reply

  6. The optimist that I am, most of the times I find the grass greener on my side.. I am happy with what has happened.. everything happens for a reason.. so hang in there..
    All these late comments seem so out of place.. chi.. :-s

    Comment by The optimist from utopia — December 6, 2006 @ 9:17 am | Reply

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